Tuesday, June 30, 2009

fighting with myself.

In my past, my choices have always been based on what is best for me. Im learning that i have to start thinking about what i WANT. I've been in positions where its either whats right OR what i want... well honestly, i sometimes feel selfish and disappointed in myself but you have to admit those people might not feel the same for me. When you think about it, there are people who you know will be there for you and then there are people who say they will be there but its just a set up. I've been at both ends of this dilemma and its not easy on either side.

Friday, June 26, 2009

happily ever now?

there is nothing like the total feeling of bliss; i have yet to feel this.
My search for happiness has been never-ending.
I don't believe that i will find it in my young years.
I've found many contestants.
Meanwhile, i have learned to mature, grow & learn from my mistakes.
I have yet to perfect the way i think & deal with my relationships.
You know they say "time changes things" but i believe you have to change them yourselves.