pulling away.

its frustrating when you care about someone so damn much
& the hardest thing for you to do is to express to them how much you care.
This person makes you feel like nothing can happen to you.
Like you'd never get hurt, & yet something inside you is pulling away.
not letting the words come out of your mouth, no matter how hard you try.
its like your blaming this person for something they didn't do.
its not fair & you know it, but there's something pulling away.
It just hurts knowing that you'd be risking something all over again.
trying to find a way around it, but it just keeps pulling away.
Knowing how much of an accomplishment it would be to just say
whatever it is that you feel, just saying words that mean so much;
but something keeps pulling away. . .

but one day, i know that one day all of this will change.

--crosses fingers.*